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Jonathan Crane ([personal profile] restingstitchface) wrote2023-04-01 01:00 am

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This is Dr. Crane. I'm not available right now but my answering machine is. Maybe you can hold a conversation with it instead?



ordinar: (♛ 013)

[personal profile] ordinar 2023-06-30 11:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Are YOU afraid of what we're here for?
ordinar: (♛ 009)

shh it's all good

[personal profile] ordinar 2023-06-30 11:47 pm (UTC)(link)
What makes you think other people are afraid then?
ordinar: (♛ 028)

[personal profile] ordinar 2023-07-01 01:30 am (UTC)(link)
I mean, we're basically tools for the people in power to use however they want.

That doesn't scare me, it just annoys me.
ordinar: (♛ 041)

[personal profile] ordinar 2023-07-01 01:48 am (UTC)(link)
Exactly.

I've been used as a tool before. So I guess I'm used to it, but I'm also sick of it.
ordinar: (♛ 030)

[personal profile] ordinar 2023-07-02 04:43 am (UTC)(link)
That was pretty much my whole life before here. Maybe it doesn't really matter anymore but

Like, everything that's happened to you is still a part of you.
ordinar: (♛ 035)

[personal profile] ordinar 2023-07-03 07:46 pm (UTC)(link)
No.

I don't know.

At some point, shouldn't you get over it? Stop being so angry?
ordinar: (♛ 052)

[personal profile] ordinar 2023-07-06 08:49 pm (UTC)(link)
[He thinks about how he uses all that anger to ignite his fire magic — how he's turned that powerlessness into power.]
I guess so.

What about things like grief or guilt?
[He's not sure what exactly he means by the question, but they're other things he's stuck on.]
ordinar: (♛ 028)

[personal profile] ordinar 2023-07-07 10:28 pm (UTC)(link)
But is there, like, a way to use them for something good? Like how anger can motivate you.
ordinar: (♛ 030)

[personal profile] ordinar 2023-07-12 04:33 am (UTC)(link)
I guess that makes sense. Like, if you feel guilty about something, it pushes you to try to...to make up for it.
ordinar: (♛ 035)

[personal profile] ordinar 2023-07-14 08:45 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm not scared.
[He's not scared of who he could be, anyway; he's more scared that he'll never figure out how to get there. There's so much more he could say, so many more feelings to wade through, but he feels like he's already said too much. It's like popping open a bottle, and the contents are all shaken up, so it just starts spilling everywhere.

It's exhausting, too.]
Um. Thanks for listening to me.
ordinar: (♛ 013)

[personal profile] ordinar 2023-07-16 10:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Ok. I'll

See you around.
[Well, maybe someday he'd get the courage to come talk face to face.]